To start off with I know it was not only hard on me but I am sure it was hard on many of the family. I would of loved to hear from her or got a christmas card..Ya, know how hard it is to not pick up a pen and paper and send her a letter or call her on the phone..And what I wouldnt do to hear her sweet voice..But I do see her face daily I have a picture of her posted on my desk and when I am down I see her smiling face telling me its alright. I have to tell you all though xmas was not as bad for me as I thought. What got me was the one month to the day it happend.. It was like reliving it all over again..But ya know I have gave it all to GOD. And I know she is all around us..And to tell ya all the trueth I didnt really feel her around me on xmas but I am sure she peeked in on us all.But now my computer is doing strange things and it started christmas day, it plays music for no reason.. And it is good mellow music!! My husband told me watch out for it to say((Trish))..And it dont do it all the time, just off and on.And if any of you all remember grandma Lena came threw on Dots...On her and mom& Bethany and it was so funny they all got scared..You just had to be there..Well if this is my little sign from her than I will greatfully accept this one, I love music and so did she and we both enjoy our computers..So this is all something we have in commen..But I do hope for me and all my family we all have a better christmas next year!! I love you all and god bless you all! I love you aunt Dot and keep your head up the family will be alright!!